Confessions of a Neurotic Woman

I have a few things to get off my chest.  First, I would love to be skinny!  I mean how nice would it be to go into any store and pick up any old outfit and look great.  I however, am not thin, nor tall, and if I am committing to my title here, confessing that I am doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to become thin.

Secondly, I wanted to be CEO of a fortune 500 company when I was a kid.  Yep, that is right.  I was planning on taking over the world. Confession 2, I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to become a CEO.  That is right, my major is Speech Communications with a minor in Ag Development.  I can hear all three of my dedicated followers saying, what? Seriously?  (BTW, thank you for following me!)  Yep, I have always said that my major was: teaching a cow to talk.  What do you do with that?  I will tell you, it is NOT become CEO of a major Fortune 500 company. 

Confession 3: I over analyze EVERYTHING.  As I sit here to write this blog, I am sure I will read it over and over again.  Contemplating, is it funny?  What is my point?  Where am I going?  What does this all mean?  It means that I make decisions. Then I consider each decision I did not make.  This leads to the conclusion that my original decision was absolutely terrible.  At which point, most days, I just say oh well and accept the decision may end in a craving for chocolate.

Confession 4:  I am really trying to find my place in God's plan.  My silly rants and admissions of faults I am hoping are a pathway to discovering God's plan for me.  You see, I have always thought God has great plans for me.  He has been refining me, testing me, and pushing me; I think I have finally connected with Him.  It took a few trials, a few broken hearts, a few lost friendships, and a few reluctant and tearful letting go and letting God to get where I am.  I don't want to miss out on His calling me because I am afraid.  If I need to confess my faults, or divulge a few mistakes to be cleared for service in His plan, then I pray I am no Jonah.  The last thing I want is to be thrown up on a beach smelling like whale puke!

Last Confession:  I am not a very good listener.  I can talk, but I need to listen.  If I am to discover what God has planned for me, then I better get started listening!

^{Proverbs 18:13}
To answer before listening—
   that is folly and shame. 

My last thought here is that I do not want my last two confessions to be like my first two.  I don't want to say that I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to achieve them.  Now is a good time to learn from those mistakes and say it is time to do ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING to seek God's will and listen for His call.