Here it is 2012.
Let me start with, I do not believe in New Years Resolutions. I think it is ridiculous to say that I am going to start a diet that I have no intentions of keeping. A New Year Resolution in my mind is like the first disappointment of the new year. Why oh why would I want to start my year with a new year resolution/ disappointment? I don't and will not! I will say that I am more likely to set a goal. My goal generally has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH WEIGHT LOSS. This is not to say that I am not in need of shedding a pound or ten, but frankly, I am not really ready to commit to that, so why try to fool myself.
The past two years, I have simply said, that I want to be in service to God some where that I have not previously served. My first attempt at meeting this goal found me as an assistant teacher in the Kindergarten vacation Bible school class. On my second day, a kid broke his arm! That was a clear sign to me that Kinder vacation Bible school, NOT my calling. The second year that I made this my goal, I did not attempt VBS. Instead, I opted to participate in a Feed My Starving Children event. It was awesome. However, that was not much service, seeing how I showed up and did like two hours worth of work, bought a t shirt and went home. My previous thought for service for 2011 was that I should mentor a young person. Unfortunately, I allowed myself to be talked out of it. I had gone so far as to make an appointment with the director of the program that mentors young girls just released from prison. I canceled the appointment. I thought to myself, " I won't have the time." However, if I spent more considerate prayer time, God might have made time for HIS WILL. I regret is not praying more about it, so that I was clear on HIS will and not my own.
While this year, I want to, again, be in service some where I have not served before. I have no idea what that will be. I love the idea of leading a ladies Bible study. Of course, I can already think of great reasons not too. The first reason that stops me is my own insecurity that I don't have enough Bible knowledge. I also wonder where I would find time, and who would want to do a study with me. When I say find time, it is not that I do not have time, it is more about the priorities for time in my life. I have a four year old, and while setting a good example is important, I struggle with the extent of "extra curricular" things I should commit to outside of the home. I want her and my husband to have me when they need me. To use Proverbs 31, the chapter of the Bible that sends cringes of inadequacy down my spine, I need to be a good and noble wife for my husband and child. The verses of seasons comes to mind, there is a season for everything, but what season am I in? I am sure if I spend some time in prayer, my answers will come, be that in a clear resounding way, or in the silence that tends to accompany the very difficult waiting on God. Either way, the scriptures say," For I know the plans I have for you....." I guess I will just wait and see what God has for me in 2012.
I am certain of the things that I would not like to repeat in 2012. This list is an easy one to start. We will start with the most recent. I hope that we will not repeat my 4 year old telling her Sunday school teacher that she wants a BB gun to shoot cats for Christmas. Thanks to her daddy for telling her she REALLY needed a BB gun from Santa. (Obviously, he loves that movie, A Christmas Story.) I do not want to repeat the pipe that broke in our home, because we are still fixing various related things. I do not want to repeat the ticket I got on the way to church, however, this requires slowing down. If I am honest, I may repeat this one! I don't want to repeat another bad Aggie football season. When you lead the whole game and loose in the fourth quarter, well, it just plain hurts! Most importantly, I DO NOT want to repeat an Obama Presidency! :)
Happy New Years Friends! May the God of peace fill your hearts and may His love fill your homes!
This is my mindset, now tell me yours!